I am so having Thai chicken for lunch.....
Not much going on today. Last night after we ran and had dinner we just relaxed. We were going to sort out the guest room but might just do that tonight. The office organization went well but we now need containers to organize the stuff on the shelves. I guess we'll need some for the guest room as well. Thankfully, DH has come up with a plan for the closet in our room so we may get the shelving for the sides and work on the closet this weekend.
Tonight after highland dancing I have to go to a party that my department is holding to say goodbye. It was originally supposed to be help on Thursday (when I have no classes, etc) but somehow it got moved to tonight. They were upset when I said originally that I couldn't make it! I'm going to drop in for 1/2 hour after class but I expect that most people will have left after the first hour or so. So while it is a nice gesture, the organization sucks! I did get to have lunch with my counselees yesterday so that was nice. We'll see how tonight goes but I will keep an open mind since there are people who'd like to say goodbye.
Tomorrow we're doing 3 miles (without the dogs). I swear, Ptolemy (the red CKCS) was either dragging me or I was dragging him last night. I can't deal with that on a 3 mile run! We also have a weigh in on Friday for the 100 day challenge. I will probably have lost 2 lbs this week but I think DH maintained his weight. He has been keeping a food diary though for the nutritionist so we'll see what she says when we sent it to her. Oh, I'm having fun with my Nike+ now that I've figured out how to use the website.
Why is it when we decide to take a rest from TTC that I get the best EWCM that I have seen since we started this whole process. It's nuts! Needless to say, I was more than a little irritated when I saw it. Then I tried to think positively and told myself that as I get healthier, I'll end up with more months swimming in EWCM. I was snickering by the end of that thought.... yeah, this is what my life now comes to!
28 January 2009
26 January 2009
Counting down to independence.....
Thanks to my school work needs, I am going back to independent consulting at the end of the week. This week will be full of lunches and cocktail parties and meetings to transition out of my current job. i'm pretty excited about the future! I missed working for myself. At least I am better prepared this time around!
The end of the cleanse was great. I have never been happier to eat! I've been doing everything in moderation. To tell you the truth, I'm not that hungry. I guess it teaches you that sometimes you eat just because stuff is there. I try not to pay attention to weight during a cleanse but at the end I always hope that I can keep whatever I lost off. I am hoping that I can do so this time as well! So on Saturday I ran 4 miles and it was pretty tough. Yesterday I walked 5.46 miles and it was better. My hamstrings are a little tight but I am feeling ok. We'll see how I do in dance class tonight!
The end of the cleanse was great. I have never been happier to eat! I've been doing everything in moderation. To tell you the truth, I'm not that hungry. I guess it teaches you that sometimes you eat just because stuff is there. I try not to pay attention to weight during a cleanse but at the end I always hope that I can keep whatever I lost off. I am hoping that I can do so this time as well! So on Saturday I ran 4 miles and it was pretty tough. Yesterday I walked 5.46 miles and it was better. My hamstrings are a little tight but I am feeling ok. We'll see how I do in dance class tonight!
23 January 2009
Almost done....
I cheated last night. I made DH quiche and just had to taste it (I had a tiny sliver). It hasn't made a difference (i.e. I didn't end up with an upset tummy) so I don't think I ruined the whole thing. I do feel bad for being weak though. Anyhow, I just need to make it through today and then it is on to the next phase of the fitness regieme. We're starting a 100 day fitness challenge today. We weighed in for the challenge today. My goal is to lose 10-15 lbs and to increase my endurance (i.e. get back in dancing shape) and DH's goal is to lose 20 lbs and to survive the 1/2 marathon. It promises to be fun (and a PITA at the same time).
I did a bit of reading on male infertility yesterday and info related to increased prolactin levels. It actually made me hopeful that the parlodel might work to the extent that the SA in March might come back with some decent information. I really would like to be able to do a few IUIs before we have to make the final IVF decision. Ok, I'd prefer not to have to do anything other than what I learned about in biology class!!! Still, I'm a planner - I need degrees of contingencies!
Not much else going on. I spoke with the former boss today. She's having a girl in March. I was so excited for her. We discussed how just doing project work has lessened the guilt that she wasn't there for her 1st of 2 boys' major moments when she was working part-time. SIL is dealing with that now. It is something I will keep in mind due to my mom's guilt over not being able to spend much time with me as a baby.
I did a bit of reading on male infertility yesterday and info related to increased prolactin levels. It actually made me hopeful that the parlodel might work to the extent that the SA in March might come back with some decent information. I really would like to be able to do a few IUIs before we have to make the final IVF decision. Ok, I'd prefer not to have to do anything other than what I learned about in biology class!!! Still, I'm a planner - I need degrees of contingencies!
Not much else going on. I spoke with the former boss today. She's having a girl in March. I was so excited for her. We discussed how just doing project work has lessened the guilt that she wasn't there for her 1st of 2 boys' major moments when she was working part-time. SIL is dealing with that now. It is something I will keep in mind due to my mom's guilt over not being able to spend much time with me as a baby.
21 January 2009
Cleanse .... Day 3....
... and I am not dreaming about food. Interestingly enough, I haven't had many cravings on this cleanse. Even when I walk down the street and smell the food from restaurants I don't crave it afterwards. I guess this is good! Unfortunately i didn't work out last night as I attended a board meeting that ran late. I do have a 90 minute dance class tonight though so we'll see how that goes. I am concerned about healthy eating at the end of this cleanse and I might try to see the nutritionist that I am getting to take a look at DH's diet.
Speaking of DH, his urologist said yesterday that he did manage to get the results to the RE on Jan 15th. DH is going to follow up with the RE's office to make sure they received the documents. I don't think that the RE willhave much to say to us. I am thinking after the March results that he'd make a recommendation like IUI or injectables or IVF. So we're still in limbo. I've now rationalized that we're going to take this time to get healthier so I am more ok with limbo than I was last week or even over the weekend. of course, I am concerned how we'd do IUI or even monitor a cycle since I no longer have an ob/gyn to go to..... I hope the RE's local contact is willing to take us in if necessary. It also begs the question how to prepare for the Czech Republic if it comes to that. I guess we'd have to explain our situation and see what the Czech doctors recommend.
And finally, welcome ICLWers. This is my first time participating and I am looking forward to getting to know new people. I've just completed my first day of visits and it was fun and interesting. See you on your blog soon!
Speaking of DH, his urologist said yesterday that he did manage to get the results to the RE on Jan 15th. DH is going to follow up with the RE's office to make sure they received the documents. I don't think that the RE willhave much to say to us. I am thinking after the March results that he'd make a recommendation like IUI or injectables or IVF. So we're still in limbo. I've now rationalized that we're going to take this time to get healthier so I am more ok with limbo than I was last week or even over the weekend. of course, I am concerned how we'd do IUI or even monitor a cycle since I no longer have an ob/gyn to go to..... I hope the RE's local contact is willing to take us in if necessary. It also begs the question how to prepare for the Czech Republic if it comes to that. I guess we'd have to explain our situation and see what the Czech doctors recommend.
And finally, welcome ICLWers. This is my first time participating and I am looking forward to getting to know new people. I've just completed my first day of visits and it was fun and interesting. See you on your blog soon!
18 January 2009
A Cleansing Week
Tomorrow I will be starting a 5 day cleanse. I probably cleanse once or twice a year. I know I should do it quarterly but life usually catches up with me and I forget. With all the things we want to accomplish this year, I hope that I do remember to cleanse quarterly.
Yesterday we did our regular running about an I ran into a friend who happens to be DH's cousin by marriage. In June when we went to the RE appointment on Island, she and her husband also went that afternoon. Well, she's pg! I am pretty psyched for her but in the same thought we felt sad that we don't feel that we've progressed in 6 months. Yes, we keep saying we're taking the time to get ourselves in shape and out lives in order (to a degree). But face it, rationalization flies out the window when you see something that you want to badly.
The exercise is going well. I've lost weight since New year's but DH is still at the same weight. His running endurance is getting better but he's frustrated that he isn't seeing any physical differences. I wonder if he needs to see a nutritionist?
Yesterday we did our regular running about an I ran into a friend who happens to be DH's cousin by marriage. In June when we went to the RE appointment on Island, she and her husband also went that afternoon. Well, she's pg! I am pretty psyched for her but in the same thought we felt sad that we don't feel that we've progressed in 6 months. Yes, we keep saying we're taking the time to get ourselves in shape and out lives in order (to a degree). But face it, rationalization flies out the window when you see something that you want to badly.
The exercise is going well. I've lost weight since New year's but DH is still at the same weight. His running endurance is getting better but he's frustrated that he isn't seeing any physical differences. I wonder if he needs to see a nutritionist?
16 January 2009
Irritation
After my dentist appointment I went to my gyn's office to set up my annual check-up, change my insurance info, etc. They couldn't accept my appointment request. Apparently, there are only 3 Ob's practicing on the Island since 2 retired in the fall. My doctor is overwhelmed with pregnant women (she's currently seeing 200+ pregnant patients). So they're asking their gyn patients to get their paps and breast exams done through their GP.
In my case they'll also send my GP all of our infertility records because the GP will have to deal with that as well. I stood there looking lost for a while. I now have to start from square one explaining what has been going on to my GP.... I'm going to give the GP a call in a few minutes.
In my case they'll also send my GP all of our infertility records because the GP will have to deal with that as well. I stood there looking lost for a while. I now have to start from square one explaining what has been going on to my GP.... I'm going to give the GP a call in a few minutes.
15 January 2009
A year and six months of TTC - We're here!
Actually, I am not really that excited about having spent 18 months trying to have a baby. I am however a bit psyched about being able to spend a few months cleansing and getting in shape. It's kind of a six of one, half a dozen of another type of thing. I've been working on the diet component this week. I've been cutting back on sugar and refined starches and fish and chicken instead of red meat. I can now get more rigorous but I need to ensure I keep my energy up for the running and dancing that I am doing.
DH called the urologist today and the nurse wasn't sure whether his results were sent to the RE's rep on Island. He was so irritated.... I do not know how we're supposed to get anything done relying on the timliness of the doctors here. In any case, I need to set up my annual appointment with my gyn and I may tell her that we're looking at other options other than the RE in NJ. I need to find out if she's willing to work with another doctor to prescribe medication, etc. I also have a nephrologist visit in April and I will need to keep him in the loop as well.
I was saying to DH that it is amazing that we are at a point where we're going to be literally gambling for a child. We are people who research everything and have contingencies for everything. We're now getting into a situation where we're hoping that we'll be one of the successful couples. That scares the crap out of me. I am also scared about how I would take a failure of this plan of action.
So a new phase dawns. We both should be in decent shape by March (for the urologist and gyn appointments) and will be in fighting shape by May 25th. We're still hoping for a miracle but honestly, I'm done with putting so much energy into each cycle...... I have other things that I need to do!!!
DH called the urologist today and the nurse wasn't sure whether his results were sent to the RE's rep on Island. He was so irritated.... I do not know how we're supposed to get anything done relying on the timliness of the doctors here. In any case, I need to set up my annual appointment with my gyn and I may tell her that we're looking at other options other than the RE in NJ. I need to find out if she's willing to work with another doctor to prescribe medication, etc. I also have a nephrologist visit in April and I will need to keep him in the loop as well.
I was saying to DH that it is amazing that we are at a point where we're going to be literally gambling for a child. We are people who research everything and have contingencies for everything. We're now getting into a situation where we're hoping that we'll be one of the successful couples. That scares the crap out of me. I am also scared about how I would take a failure of this plan of action.
So a new phase dawns. We both should be in decent shape by March (for the urologist and gyn appointments) and will be in fighting shape by May 25th. We're still hoping for a miracle but honestly, I'm done with putting so much energy into each cycle...... I have other things that I need to do!!!
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