I PASSED!!!!!

I'm exhausted and too many parts of my body hurt ... still, I PASSED!!!!!

Paranoid...

My teacher's exam is on Thursday. I keep going from being ok with what I know to totally paranoid and not being able to describe the simplest things. I am freaking myself out over this..... I cannot wait for Friday (I still have an exam on Friday but at least it is not my teacher's exam). I do not know how I managed to get through grad school and then through all of my doctoral coursework without as much angst as I am feeling for this dance exam..... SIGH!!!

Back in the Saddle Again!

Today is day one of TTC cycle #1. Yes, we decided that a reboot was in order. We reached 25 TTC cycles with our last cycle in Aug/Sept 2009 (the IVF/ICSI cycle). With the MRI which then led to the fibroid removal surgery, we haven't TTCed since. I will admit that I wasn't too happy at first about taking so many months off at first but It has been good for my sanity and spirit in the long run. I am a bit more positive about getting back into all of this (and getting back into shape, getting healthier, working on my confidence, the whole shebang). It's sad that it took a 6 hour surgery to get me to stop and re-center myself. I am in way cured of my cynicism though - I will just say that I am more willing to focus on the positives and possibilities than I was a year ago.

We're using new kit for this reboot. I am not in the mood to track by BBT. I contemplated doing digital OPKs and then looked at the Clear.blue monitor. In the end, we've decided to try out the Ov.Watch. I want the least amount of fuss and the greatest amount of sleep.... granted, I plan to start walking the dogs again at 6.30am so the sleep part may be wishful thinking! So Aidan is now putting the watch together and actually following the instructions to set it up (good man!!!). I'll post my thoughts about the watch as the cycle progresses.

Highland Dancing Insanity

I am a week away from my teacher's exam. Every night I run through the 6 step Fling, 4 and 2 Seann Truhibas, Flora McDonald's Fancy, Heilan Laddie, Wilt Thou Go to the Barracks Johnny and the Irish Washerwoman's Jig for Aidan to critique. That is then followed by him testing me on foot positions, basic movements and steps from the Fling, Sword Dance, Sean Truhibas and the Reel. I'm a mess. There is so much info floating around in my head. I seem to be able to explain difficult stuff but find it hard to explain the simple things. It is driving me nuts!

Anyhow, tomorrow is (hopefully) a day off for me. I plan to study as much as possible so Aidan canstart the intense nightly testing. I have a class with my instructor for a few hours on Saturday and then regular classes on Monday and Wednesday (which currently I'll be late for). In an attempt to be sane, I am trying to visualize a teacher's certificate with my name on it. I think I'll be fine. Yeah, I'll e singing 'I have Confidence' ocer the coming week!!!!!

Other than that, the uniforms are coming together slowly. I still don't have a white National Dress - the one that was made for me was too short due to my long legs (I'm talking porn star short). A new one is being made and I hope I get it soon - I need to be comfortable holding the skirt for my exam!

Catching Up!

I'm finally catching up after a pretty nice holiday weekend. I've been deeling with a dodgy tummy, thanks to the antibiotics but other than that, it's been good. I did some gardening, made some great Good Friday fare and finished a fun game on my DS.

This year, Aidan outdid himself with the Easter egg hunt. I'll post the pictures to show the experience:

The turtles are swimming away from the beach.

If you look in the sand, you'll see where they buried their eggs

Cadbury's Mini Eggs, that is!

What an Easter egg hunt!

We interrupt this blog....

TMI moment......

All is right with the world today because I finally got to go to a waxing appointment.

Sure, I remember a girls sushi evening when a good friend of mine tried to convince me and another friend of the benefits of waxing. At that point, I had my eyebrows waxed maybe one or twice a year and said "h*ll no!". That hurt enough! She then went into the amazing end result of the brazillian wax.... you can guess my response. Unfortunately, within a year I had to eat my initial response as I began to have my lower leg waxed, and then my underarms and then my bikini. And then, 3 months before I got married, I had a brazillian. I have not gone back to basic bikini line waxes since. They are the best for dancing and so much easier to deal with in general.

So yeah, you can imagine the horrible world in which I have been living since my last brazillian in November. The whole concept of healing was a PITA from the dancing perspective. It has been torture from the brazilian perspective! I went back for leg and underarm waxes in January and that was good... but it wasn't great... So getting the ok for the rest was akin to winning an award (ok, maybe not that exciting but believe me, I was excited). Today was a little more painful than usual and took a little longer than usual but it was expected. I walked out happy and content. A bit odd, yes I know, but I'll take what I can get.

Looking forward, I wonder about waxing and pregnancy when the time comes. Can I? For how long? And how long after? Odd questions, I know. But after the last 4 months, they're definitely valid.....

:)

HSG... check!

Compared with my Aug 2008 HSG, this time was easy! I checked in at 1.30 after running up two flights of stairs. First I tried to go directly into the unit but then I realised that I hadn't checked in yet. As they processed me the nurse was receiving calls that the OR was ready for me. I literally changed and was immedicately wheeled out. The needle wasn't too bad but I still was pretty freaked out so my BP was a little high. In seconds my ears were tingling (does that happen to anyone else?) and I was out. I woke up a little later in the recovery room. The oxygen was divine! I had to stay there for 30 minutes and then they took me back to the unit to change and have a few biscuits. I was done in 2 hours! Last time I was there for 10 hours! Talk about a difference. Anyhow, it appears that I've healed well and my tubes are open. I apparently have to see the doctor to go over the results in 2 weeks - and then I'll see if the Boston doctor needs to talk.

I ended up at highland dancing because I had time to waste until 8pm. I walked through a few dances and had to deal with people trying on their white dresses. Most of them are too short. I got flustered with the requests to fix or have them remade. Mine is really bad - it's mid thigh and it is supposed to sit on the knee. I went into the tailor this morning and it's actually our fault. We gave him small, medium and large patterns and did not tell him where they were supposed to fall so he made them to the standard length. So they fit some people whose hip to knee measurement sn't that long and are mini-skirts on others. He's going to remake a few but I am so tired of the process. We've had more drama over these white dresses in the last 12 months and still don't have everyone properly outfitted.....

Holiday tomorrow! Good Friday is my favorite. I am sorta looking forward to cooking tonight. I might also make a kite. I definitely will be watching "Easter Parade"!