Christmas Eve

This time last year I was a basket case. I was in the midst of AF after a cycle where we were so sure we had succeeded. We had a friend and a relative who were newly pg. I broke down in the car and DH had no idea how to console me. The episode resulted in us agreeing that we needed to talk through all of these emotions so we're not keeping them bottled up and waiting to explode. Little did we know that was training for a trying year.

This year I am on the verge of the rest of my life. I've lost myself not only during this year (and 17 cycles of TTC). I had lost myself before that. My gift to myself this year is to get back into doing the things that I love to do. It sounds easier than it will be to make a reality but I have to do this for myself. Top on that list is finishing the degree. The second relates to dancing (and teaching). And third is to do work that I am eager to get up to do in the morning - and I am on track to do that! In place number 4 is expanding our family. It is not a priority because I now know what happens when you let that guide your life....

Anyhow, I'm feeling grateful, blessed and full of Christmas Spirit right now. I feel at peace and that is more than I could have ever asked for!